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We Are The Dreamers!

Friday, September 30, 2011

彩虹與煙火的共同點

這場看似永遠都打不完的戰爭,
終於有讓我喘氣的片刻了。
過程中,幾乎都是行屍走肉,
打完一場,又要準備下一場。
整個月裡 ,
都在提心吊膽的心情度過。
也許 太在乎結局了,
所以 給自己有些壓力,
腦筋也稍微繃緊。
一切的努力也只為了一個‘贏’字,
哪有人會說 “ 我付出,只為了輸 ”。
但是,贏可歸類為好幾種,
拿一百分,就是贏,
得到別人的讚賞,也算是贏。
我不是一個追求完美主義者 ,
所以對我而言,
只要付出的,與得到的成果形成對比 ,
我就算贏。

贏的定義,在於你如何看待它

也許是上天想要懲罰我,
懲罰我沒做好十足的準備
懲罰我太隨心所欲,分了心
所以在南北部的那場戰爭,
被敵方反攻一回,讓我輸得徹底。
哭泣,不是因為敗戰
而是因為自己不爭氣
希望自己這次會得到一點點的教訓吧!

再來,趁今天得空,去了AEON一趟,
去的時候,心還砰砰的跳個不停
可是東找西找,還是找不到
很懊惱啊!
怎麼這麼大一間百貨公司早不到一張唱片?
算了吧,可能這就是緣分。

說來還蠻奇怪的。

現在所選所看中的項鍊(當然沒買啦),
全部還蠻搖滾風味
就會想說,很順眼,很有個人風味
也應該是受到《五月天》一點點的影響吧!

五月天就好像毒藥
讓我不自覺的上癮了。
這下子,該怎麼辦啦?



ashin
 
熱情跟激情不一定要為自己。
有時候真心的奉獻,
另熱情跟激情更純粹,更長久,更雋永。





Taylor's Principal Awards Interview

Last Sunday, which was on the 25th of September, Yuan Ting, Low and I went to Taylor's College Subang Jaya for Taylor's Principal Awards' interview! I must say it was a valuable experience as it was my first interview for a scholarship! *trying very hard to forget about the embarassing AFS interview*
Our slot was at 10 a.m. to 12 p.m. so we reached at around 9.45 a.m. I guess, as it was better to reach early than to reach late. Hehe. After the registration, we were required to enter Lecture Theatre 2 for a short briefing session. The briefing session turned out to be longer than I had expected. Around 1 hour maybe. We were given an explanation about the scholarship (mainly about leadership) and given tips on the Do's and Don'ts during an interview. It's kind of funny how they emphasised on HANDSHAKE almost 70% of the whole briefing session. And NO SWEATY PALMS! Lol.

As soon as the briefing session ended, we were allowed to throw them any questions at all regarding the scholarship and Taylor's College. I can still remember someone asking, "How many questions does the interviewer ask?" which was around 4 to 5 questions. It was a one-to-one interview where each person was interviewed for about 20 minutes.

Then the nerve-wrecking moment arrived!! *insert creepy music here*

All of us were separated into 2 groups, Group A and Group B. Coincidentally, (I'm not even sure if it was, haha) all the three of us were assigned into the same group! But different interviewers. Haha. There were like so many interviewers! Each group was then divided into 3 person per interviewer and we were required to sit outside the interview room for our turns. It was pretty scary I tell you. I was the second person to enter and you couldn't imagine how nervous I felt. I could feel the butterflies dancing in my stomach. However, the staff there sat beside me and tried to calm me down by chatting with me about my future and her job in Taylor's College. I failed to get her name. Lousy, I know. I only got to know that she works at the Exam's Unit. Oh well. Well yeah, but she gave me some tips about Psychology and said that I could pop by any time for more advice on that. Haha. Oh and I looked at the paper on the door with Ms. Rowena written on it. I made sure that I pronounced her name correctly before entering. Lol. I asked the staff for quite many times if my pronunciation was correct. XD

Tada! It was my turn. T_T

I entered the room with my hands as cold as ice. Lol. From the first look, I knew that she was friendly already! She was smiling at me when I entered and offered to shake hands even before I did so. ;) So yeah, she asked all the basic questions like : 

"Tell me more about yourself" (She asked me how to pronounce my name. Lol.)
"Do you like being the only child?"
"Tell me about your parents"

These are the questions she asked me in the beginning to calm me down and build a rapport I guess. Hehe. Then came the real business :

"What is your favourite subject"
"Which clubs are you active in in school"
"What have you contributed to the society? Are you involved in any activites out of school?"
"What course would you like to take and why?"
"Which university do you wish to pursue your future studies in?"
"Did you participate in any academic competitions? Tell me more about them."

Feel free to ask them any questions after the interview. They would be delighted to help you. Hehe. As for me, I asked during the interview. I asked if she could explain more to me about Psychology. Oh she's so kind. (Y) So yeah. Those were the basic questions an interviewer would ask aye? There were more but I don't really remember. Lol. You will get to see more questions during the briefing session. I realised that there was no need to feel nervous at all because Ms. Rowena was so kind. :D

So whether or not I get the scholarship, I really appreciate this golden opportunity that I owned. Thank you, Taylor's College! :D

What's next? Pictures, of course! :D


Look at those eyebags of mine. T_T Gotta get some good sleep.






Wednesday, September 28, 2011

為自己鼓掌

不知過了多久,
好像已經好久,好久沒有在陽光的懷抱裡起床了
沒有曙光的早晨,就好像沒有星星的宇宙,
令我不禁感到虛寒,那麼的不安寧。

昨夜的夢,已不是那麼的清楚
只模糊地記得夢裡,母親即將死去,
然後,我就哭醒了。
已經有好一段時間,我沒有在夢中哭了。
錯,應該是已經很久,沒有做夢了。
可能腦袋知道第二天不用早起,不用考試,
所以在自由自在的空間裡,活躍起來吧。
就算臉頰有哭過的痕跡,
但,有夢,有光的早晨,還蠻令人振奮的。

用了一天的時間學會唱《志明與春嬌》
兩天學會彈《天使》
但是花了十七年的時間,還是學不會,所謂的堅強
 不,我不是在懊惱。
可能要學一輩子,但我還不想放棄。

愛哭的本性,彷彿已成為我的特徵了。
說我敏感也好,說我不成熟也好,
但不可以說我脆弱。
如果我是脆弱的話,那我早就已崩潰。
可是沒有,
我還是睡過覺後,以微笑來回報這世界。
我還是很感激,有呼吸的機會,
還有,能向前走的力量。

花凋謝了,會萌生新的花朵。
希望滅了,同樣還會燃燒起來。
去點燃自己心中的那把火吧!
就算要付出很多的努力,很大的代價,
點了會滅,但滅了,還是去點吧!

“期待著彩虹 所以開了窗 窗外只有灼熱閃光
所謂的彩虹 不過就是光
只要心還透明 就能折射希望”

人的一生,不會是風調雨順。
不知要撞幾次牆壁,跌幾次懸崖,
跌了又爬,爬了又跌 ,
經歷一次又一次的重傷,幾乎傷痕累累
但是,
只要對明天有希望,對未來有憧憬,
前方的路依然是光明的。
不能保證最後一定會開花結果,
更不能確定,付出的一定會得到回報,
但用盡一生的生命力,活下去,
就已經是對自己最好,最棒的禮物,
難道不是嗎?








 

 “就算會有一天 沒人與我合唱
至少在我的心中 還有個尚未崩壞的地方”