Everyone is spreading out...

SPM, is the end of high school... I had a childish thinking previously, that my friends and I can study in the same class again, but now, NONE...!!! I miss everyone!!! I miss every moment when we were together!!! I miss every lame joke!!! I miss the atmosphere!!! I miss......... Different environment, I need to start adjusting myself... With the new air to breath in... Without an old friend to cheer for me with the very familiar voice... I knew it will come, but i still feel a mass in by heart, that I started crying... Everyone is spreading out, like a black ink dropped into a pool of water, chasing different dreams... Wondering if meeting is possible??? Or the colour of the ink will fade off??? Friends... I tried to be tough by not saying "I miss u" very often... But now I beh tahan d... : I MISS U ALL, my friends... Perhaps a classmate meeting next time, we will find everyone is funny : different body shape??? Different hairstyle??? With a career that we an never think of??? With a partner that make us shock and happy for??? With tears of joy??? With smile of happiness??? With love... Love of friendship... We learn, we laugh, we care, we share, we hurt, we cried, we support, we teach, we talk, we play, we joke, everything is done, together... When we r apart, we still learn together... Learn the feeling of missing someone... The feeling of eagerness to know about someone, the sudden thought of "how have she been???" in the middle of the night... Friends, forever...

A long time ago essay, that I appreciated...

It was during Standard 2, when I set my foot on the ground of SMK Convent Klang -- a new school, new environment. I could still vaguely remember the picture of my class and the warmest welcome from all my beloved new classmates. Back then, I was really small in size. My sister used to tell me that, "If there is any storm in Malaysia, you'd be the first one to be blown away." Now that I think of it, it might really be true as I used to be the smallest among all. Therefore, my eyes were always set on a girl. She was sitting at the corner of the classroom, always laughing and smiling from the bottom of her heart. However, it was her size that attracted my attention, she wad a head taller than me, what a big Bertha! Frankly, I had once dreamt of her as the giant in the story "Jack and the Beanstalk". But I was not as lucky ad Jack, because in my dream, I was crushed into pieces by her gigantic foot.


I was a little bit gauche and shy to take the initiative to talk to her because she had always seemed so far to reach. One morning, I enrolled in a Chinese class neat Meru. Just when I was building castles in the air, someone knocked the door and asked for permission to enter the class. It was her! Initially, I was flabbergasted because it was really unexpected for her to turn out in the old rusty building. Although we were in the same class again, we did not have the opportunity to talk to each other. Or to be precise, something unsure had stopped us from starting a conversation. The moment we reached school in afternoon, the first thing we blurted out was, "Hey, was it you this morning?" and we both burst into laughter. Standing there, we were both aware that we were now on the threshold of our friendship.

We eventually built a close rapport. Even though I had always teased her simplicity, it was also the main factor which made me like her so much. She was so innocent and her puppy eyes had always softened my heart. Despite her size, she gave an aura on the need for sympathy and protection. In the midst of her simplicity, sometimes I felt that she was mature. She did not place a mask on her life. She was a person for herself and her loved ones. I have always admired her unblemished attitude towards life as it was already a paragon in this materialistic society.

Seven years is not a short period of time. A lot has changed since then. Her height now has made disparity compared to her height during primary school. She is now half a head shorter than me. Even so, I am in mirth that she has not changed other that her height. She is still the person whom I admire in the dark. However, she has picked up on melioration to scream in class. Now, she has not only grabbed my attention but everyone's.

I am glad that she sees me as one of her most vital people in her life. Memory flashes back to last year, when my father proposed the idea to send me to New Zealand for studies and other reasons. Her tears kept rolling down her cheeks after I told her about it. I lost words to express my appreciation and gratitude towards God for granting me such a lovely friend. But it was then that I assured of my position in her life. Her tears somehow performed their magic to coax me to stay.

She is definitely an amazing friend without a shadow of doubt. Under the comparison of my strong personality, she now seems like my younger sister. I always feel that it is my responsibility to protect her pure soul from the harm of the vehement society. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life. I hereby give you my words to protect our bond fir eternity. As a friend, I respect you and I will always keep you in my heart, Low Mian En.



Written by Tan Pei Sin, Wendy
07.01.2010

Admitting Your Inability Is The First Step To Know Your Ability

"选择一件事，认真去做；
选择一种态度，认真去过；
选择一个人，认真去爱。
在成功的道路上，你没有耐心去等待成功的到来；
那么，你只好用一生的耐心去面对失败。
人生有三宝：好习惯、好心态、好人缘
承认自己的无知往往是求知的第一步。

自己说服了自己是理智的开始,
自己感动了自己是心灵的升华，
自己征服了自己世界将在你脚下。

真正的爱情不是你知道他有多好才要在一起，
而是你明明知道他有太多不好还是不愿意离开。
爱不是挂在嘴边的名词，而是生活中点点滴滴的表现。
 如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人。

真正的好朋友，并不是在一起有聊不完的话题；
而是在一起，就算不说话，也不觉得尴尬。
为你的难过而快乐的人，是敌人；
为你的快乐而快乐的人，是朋友；
为你的难过而难过的人，就是那些该放进心里的人。

这世界上，用得最快的，永远是银子；
过得最快的，永远是光阴。
成功的时候，不要忘记你的过去；
失败的时候，不要忘记你还有未来。
没有遇到挫折，永远不会懂得自己的力量有多大。"

Credit to Qiao Fang

It's such a beautiful article. 
How i wish that there is someone kind enough to translate this piece for those who don't understand.
It's not that i can't do it, but you know,
my language isn't really that perfect.
I'm afraid that i might alter or not able to carry out the true meaning of it.
Pardon me.

In And Out

I feel so empty all of a sudden, without sejarah.

No kidding. 

Have so much to talk about but isn't really in the mood. 

Maybe someday, someday, i'll spill the beam.

Time for numbers tomorrow!

Good Luck!

My beloved Lyodts sekalian! Good luck yo! Tomorrow's our big day! I will try my best not to be nervous because Dr. Noor said we will be losing out energy if we are panic-stricken. Lol. But that's a pretty rare case for me because I get nervous even for minor exams like monthly exams. Oh well. Apatah lagi SPM. 10 subjects, 10 days, we can do it! 頑張ってみんな‼ よっしゃー‼ *ninja kick*

夏天的雪

"我恨的不是考試。

我討厭的是那個不想面對而充滿不安的自己。"

我從來不恨考試，但我也不是很喜歡它。

我盲目地尋找著找不喜歡它的原因。

不停的，一直的，在尋找，

找了十一年，

但現在，我懂了。

阿信的話，讓我找到答案。

KCC Concert  2011

有些東西， 只有一生才能做一次的東西。

有些東西，錯過了一次，就等於錯過了一輩子。

雖然一切都會過去，但在放手之前，想要抓多緊，就抓多緊。

是你，讓我明白了

人生不應該再有遺憾，

感謝你，遺憾

Now Is Forever

"有陰影的地方，必定有光。 

如同最漫長苦澀的想念，必定是因為最無限美麗的回憶。"

One Step At A Time

"Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose."

--Bill Gate 

Mr Sugu 2011

"Good teaching is more a giving of right questions 

than a giving of right answers."

It's Like, Flying Without Wings

Darkness slowly enveloped my sky.
Stars were no where to be found.
Blinded by the darkness,
I continued to grope,
continued to be confused.

When i finally saw the slim light above my head,
I knew, it was the one i had been looking for.
And i knew, i wasn't all alone.

It took me long enough to see the stream of light.
Very long, indeed.
But who really cares,
as long i can see the light of my life. :)

And again, i tell myself.

Everything will be alright. 

Not an excuse, but it is the truth,
or at least, it will be the truth.

"It's okay not to be okay."

It's Snowing...

...In My Dream

Feeling Empty Inside

Thought i wouldn't care about the result that much,

but when disappointment pours onto me once again,

i prove myself wrong.

Pretty failure, am i not ? 

"不一定會有一個明天重頭活一遍，

但一定會有一個明天讓自己去改變."

Don't Love, Unless You Expect Pain. Don't Cry, Unless You Expect Love.

Today is the 12th.
Which means, SPM is in...one month only. *panic*
With only 4A+ in trial exam (somemore with the help of tips) , i seriously have no confident to score well in SPM.
Worse thing is, i have choir practice every weekend which practically eats up all my time.
I start to feel the heavy pressure pressing on my shoulder.

Tadaaaaa. Our concert poster. Anyone interested ?
:) 
Sorry if i have been too annoying lately for asking whether you can make it or not.
To be honest, i really hope Lyodts can make it.
If you think the reason i keep asking you all to come just to sell all the tickets in my hand, then you're wrong, very wrong indeed.
If possible, i'll buy all the ticket for you all to come.
Because, i wanna show you what i like.
I wanna show you the reason i still hold onto choir for such a long time.
And because, i wanna share with you the happiness of singing in choir and the happiness i have earned being a choir member.
I truly apologize, for expecting something from you guys again.
I know i shouldn't, but it just can't be helped.




Till now. Have a great day, buddies! : )

" If i were asked to give what i consider the single most useful bit of advice 

for all humanity it would be this; 

Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life 

and when it comes, hold your head high, look it squarely in eye and say, 

' I will be bigger than you. 

You cannot defeat me.

You're Not Getting Older, You're Getting Better !

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To You~

Happy Birthday To Little Wendy!

Another grown up in Lyodts. : D

 No this is not wendy...

This is the one. : )

海浪，洶湧澎湃

當漸漸與現實脫離關係
你就選擇沉溺於現實
或許，也只有我吧
遇到問題，就習慣性地逃避
儘管知道這不會是最好的方法
但那挫折感
在未經過你的認同
種種的壓在你的腦袋
讓你連呼吸 也不由自主地感到困難

我，又做錯了嗎？

彩虹與煙火的共同點

這場看似永遠都打不完的戰爭，
終於有讓我喘氣的片刻了。
過程中，幾乎都是行屍走肉，
打完一場，又要準備下一場。
整個月裡 ，
都在提心吊膽的心情度過。
也許 太在乎結局了，
所以 給自己有些壓力，
腦筋也稍微繃緊。
一切的努力也只為了一個‘贏’字，
哪有人會說 “ 我付出，只為了輸 ”。
但是，贏可歸類為好幾種，
拿一百分，就是贏，
得到別人的讚賞，也算是贏。
我不是一個追求完美主義者 ，
所以對我而言，
只要付出的，與得到的成果形成對比 ，
我就算贏。

贏的定義，在於你如何看待它。

也許是上天想要懲罰我，
懲罰我沒做好十足的準備
懲罰我太隨心所欲，分了心
所以在南北部的那場戰爭，
被敵方反攻一回，讓我輸得徹底。
哭泣，不是因為敗戰
而是因為自己不爭氣
希望自己這次會得到一點點的教訓吧！

再來，趁今天得空，去了AEON一趟，
去的時候，心還砰砰的跳個不停
可是東找西找，還是找不到
很懊惱啊！
怎麼這麼大一間百貨公司早不到一張唱片？
算了吧，可能這就是緣分。

說來還蠻奇怪的。

現在所選所看中的項鍊（當然沒買啦），
全部還蠻搖滾風味
就會想說，很順眼，很有個人風味
也應該是受到《五月天》一點點的影響吧！

五月天就好像毒藥
讓我不自覺的上癮了。
這下子，該怎麼辦啦？

ashin

 

熱情跟激情不一定要為自己。

有時候真心的奉獻，

另熱情跟激情更純粹，更長久，更雋永。

Taylor's Principal Awards Interview

Last Sunday, which was on the 25th of September, Yuan Ting, Low and I went to Taylor's College Subang Jaya for Taylor's Principal Awards' interview! I must say it was a valuable experience as it was my first interview for a scholarship! *trying very hard to forget about the embarassing AFS interview*

Our slot was at 10 a.m. to 12 p.m. so we reached at around 9.45 a.m. I guess, as it was better to reach early than to reach late. Hehe. After the registration, we were required to enter Lecture Theatre 2 for a short briefing session. The briefing session turned out to be longer than I had expected. Around 1 hour maybe. We were given an explanation about the scholarship (mainly about leadership) and given tips on the Do's and Don'ts during an interview. It's kind of funny how they emphasised on HANDSHAKE almost 70% of the whole briefing session. And NO SWEATY PALMS! Lol.

As soon as the briefing session ended, we were allowed to throw them any questions at all regarding the scholarship and Taylor's College. I can still remember someone asking, "How many questions does the interviewer ask?" which was around 4 to 5 questions. It was a one-to-one interview where each person was interviewed for about 20 minutes.

Then the nerve-wrecking moment arrived!! *insert creepy music here*

All of us were separated into 2 groups, Group A and Group B. Coincidentally, (I'm not even sure if it was, haha) all the three of us were assigned into the same group! But different interviewers. Haha. There were like so many interviewers! Each group was then divided into 3 person per interviewer and we were required to sit outside the interview room for our turns. It was pretty scary I tell you. I was the second person to enter and you couldn't imagine how nervous I felt. I could feel the butterflies dancing in my stomach. However, the staff there sat beside me and tried to calm me down by chatting with me about my future and her job in Taylor's College. I failed to get her name. Lousy, I know. I only got to know that she works at the Exam's Unit. Oh well. Well yeah, but she gave me some tips about Psychology and said that I could pop by any time for more advice on that. Haha. Oh and I looked at the paper on the door with Ms. Rowena written on it. I made sure that I pronounced her name correctly before entering. Lol. I asked the staff for quite many times if my pronunciation was correct. XD

Tada! It was my turn. T_T

I entered the room with my hands as cold as ice. Lol. From the first look, I knew that she was friendly already! She was smiling at me when I entered and offered to shake hands even before I did so. ;) So yeah, she asked all the basic questions like : 

"Tell me more about yourself" (She asked me how to pronounce my name. Lol.)
"Do you like being the only child?"
"Tell me about your parents"

These are the questions she asked me in the beginning to calm me down and build a rapport I guess. Hehe. Then came the real business :

"What is your favourite subject"
"Which clubs are you active in in school"
"What have you contributed to the society? Are you involved in any activites out of school?"
"What course would you like to take and why?"
"Which university do you wish to pursue your future studies in?"
"Did you participate in any academic competitions? Tell me more about them."

Feel free to ask them any questions after the interview. They would be delighted to help you. Hehe. As for me, I asked during the interview. I asked if she could explain more to me about Psychology. Oh she's so kind. (Y) So yeah. Those were the basic questions an interviewer would ask aye? There were more but I don't really remember. Lol. You will get to see more questions during the briefing session. I realised that there was no need to feel nervous at all because Ms. Rowena was so kind. :D

So whether or not I get the scholarship, I really appreciate this golden opportunity that I owned. Thank you, Taylor's College! :D

What's next? Pictures, of course! :D

Look at those eyebags of mine. T_T Gotta get some good sleep.

為自己鼓掌

不知過了多久，
好像已經好久，好久沒有在陽光的懷抱裡起床了
沒有曙光的早晨，就好像沒有星星的宇宙，
令我不禁感到虛寒，那麼的不安寧。

昨夜的夢，已不是那麼的清楚
只模糊地記得夢裡，母親即將死去，
然後，我就哭醒了。
已經有好一段時間，我沒有在夢中哭了。
錯，應該是已經很久，沒有做夢了。
可能腦袋知道第二天不用早起，不用考試，
所以在自由自在的空間裡，活躍起來吧。
就算臉頰有哭過的痕跡，
但，有夢，有光的早晨，還蠻令人振奮的。

用了一天的時間學會唱《志明與春嬌》
兩天學會彈《天使》
但是花了十七年的時間，還是學不會，所謂的堅強
 不，我不是在懊惱。
可能要學一輩子，但我還不想放棄。

愛哭的本性，彷彿已成為我的特徵了。
說我敏感也好，說我不成熟也好，
但不可以說我脆弱。
如果我是脆弱的話，那我早就已崩潰。
可是沒有，
我還是睡過覺後，以微笑來回報這世界。
我還是很感激，有呼吸的機會，
還有，能向前走的力量。

花凋謝了，會萌生新的花朵。
希望滅了，同樣還會燃燒起來。
去點燃自己心中的那把火吧！
就算要付出很多的努力，很大的代價，
點了會滅，但滅了，還是去點吧！

“期待著彩虹 所以開了窗 窗外只有灼熱閃光
所謂的彩虹 不過就是光
只要心還透明 就能折射希望”

人的一生，不會是風調雨順。
不知要撞幾次牆壁，跌幾次懸崖，
跌了又爬，爬了又跌 ，
經歷一次又一次的重傷，幾乎傷痕累累
但是，
只要對明天有希望，對未來有憧憬，
前方的路依然是光明的。
不能保證最後一定會開花結果，
更不能確定，付出的一定會得到回報，
但用盡一生的生命力，活下去，
就已經是對自己最好，最棒的禮物，
難道不是嗎？

 

 “就算會有一天 沒人與我合唱
至少在我的心中 還有個尚未崩壞的地方”

Life Lesson #2

Never expect what others will do for you, 

even though you know you'll do it for them. 

But still, give in all you have,

because it's always better to give than to receive.

Be strong!

Do what you want to do, 

and be who you want to be. 

Life is simple, but it is never easy.

你是我的溫柔

凌晨一點，還是守在電腦前，就算第二天必須早起身去學校考試 。
說我執著，說我幼稚，不懂得分輕重
 但我還是沒有絲毫睡覺的意思。

---只為了 
五月天的阿信 。


他長得好看，他唱的歌好聽，但最讓我瘋狂的卻是，他的文字。
一個男人竟然可以寫出這麼有自我風格,這麼棒的文字,
我心中，不僅產生了一絲絲的崇拜。

別與他人的博客，他的博客完全沒有明星感覺。
我還特地一而再三確定後，才投入進他的文字世界裡。
他把他的感覺赤裸裸地展現在那裡。
他的文字，就好像宇宙的黑洞，把我的靈魂抽進去，讓我無法自拔。

他會回复粉絲的留言，不是全部，只有第一頁的。
雖然短短幾行字，但他的回复，卻牽著我的喜怒哀樂。
就算再無聊的留言，他也同樣會以回复。
有時候，還蠻好笑的。
比如。。。

粉絲： Hello~Hello~

信： kitty~kitty~

粉絲：高雄好熱 好久沒看到五月天感覺不太好...

信： 我是太常看到五月天的傢伙的話，感覺不太好。

又或是。。。

粉絲：居然让我看到了（新的最新博客）~幸运~

信：你看到幸運了？幫我跟他說，我最近在找他。

但有些話，他卻擊中我的心聲，讓我有說不出的感動。

粉絲：阿信 阿信 從組團到現在你的堅持一直沒有變么？？？很想知道動力是什麽

信： 我沒有特別去堅持啊:)，因為一路走來不會需要太多堅持。
          困難是一定有的，但我愛音樂，也愛跟其他幾個人混在一起，
          於是很多事情，就變成自然而然。
          去愛你的夢想，與一起發生的一切吧

粉絲：想追随你们的脚步~

信： 我知道，所以我常回頭等你。

想想吧，一個偶像竟然對他的粉絲說，他在等她，能不感動，不流淚嗎？ 

或許，他只是在哄騙一個三歲小孩。

但，我相信了。

那麼真誠的文字，我義無反顧地信了。 

我彷佛感受到了，我可以在他的文字裡，

找到自己，找到自己的夢想。

我依然探索着 ，

有結果再告訴大家吧，

如果你想知道的話。

：）

“我發現其實當時的天塌般遺憾，
 到現在都已經不算什麼了。
 長大就是這樣。”

 

Burst Day!

I want to upload a picture here but I can't do it with iPad! So anyway, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY again to our apple, Soe Yuan Ting!! :D Happy birthday! 生日快乐! お誕生日おめでとう‼（＾Ｏ＾☆♪ Selamat Hari jadi! 생일축하합니다! I'm so sorry for not being able to wish you sharp at 12, blame this sleepy head. And sorry for not being able to make this blog post beautiful. Will try to beautify the next time I use my laptop. Anyways, love love you always!! Muacks! <3

Piccass

Yosh! Here are the pictures from our Saturday outing at Aeon! :D Enjoy!

No Regrets

Have you ever felt so good and satisfied,
after you have done something that you wanted to do all this while?

Well, i just did.
To tell you the truth,I'm feeling...awesome now.
It's like, i start to realise how beautiful this world is.

Basically, what i did was just showing my gratitude to Sir, my amazing choir teacher.
I guess i did talk about him last few posts right ?
I had been planning this since last month.
Planning what should i say to him cause SHINE competition will most probably be my last choir competition in high school and this might be the last time i see him.
5 years under him, i definitely need and want to do something for him.
Since the plan to make a card failed utterly, so i wanted to, at least, thank him properly.

I was quite nervous at first.
Soon after our practice, i ran after him. 
Thought it would be awkward cause i had never spoken to him formerly before
but everything was so natural when i stood in front of him.

I began telling him since this might be the last time, i thank him for everything he had done.
He was quite shocked at first but he turned out to be very nice and replied to me in a very gentle way, like how a kindergarten spoke to his 5-year-old kid. ( I'm not saying i'm a kid. :P )
Things turned out quite well and we had like a 5-minutes-conversation.
Gah, that's enough to make me fly over the moon. : DD

okay i sound a little obsessed. ._.
If you have a chance to meet with a great teacher in the near future,
you will definitely feel like, you are granted by God.
Like seriously. : )

 Thailand 2011

''Time never waits. 

Tell the person whom you love, how much you love them and 

how thankful you are to have them. 

Do not wait till tomorrow 

cause you never know what's gonna happen.''

With Regards.

I Will Get Over It

Today wasn't really my day.

It is definitely a lie if i say i am not upset for getting second in the competition.
Driving all the way from Penang and getting a saman paper for speeding,
Sir gave all he could to make us a better team.

Everything was so perfect with his presence. Like seriously.

But again, who can i put faults on? We, ourselves.
We deserved second. MGS deserved to win.
Sopranos were strong, altos were strong, intonation was amazing, dynamic was obvious
and on top of that, they performed acapella, simply means, they sang without music.
They really did a great job.
I was rather shocked when i was told that we were only 2 marks difference.
I mean, they were so good, how could it be just only the two miserable points?
This part still remained a mystery to me.
Nevertheless, i did not cry this time.
Partly because, i had expected the result.
And also, i believed success doesn't come without blood, sweat, and tears.

Enjoying the stage, was the most important thing, and i think, i did
And also, i enjoyed every practice with my team.
5 years in choir.
I begin to feel bu se de. : /

Choir will definitely be one of the memories that cross my mind when i reminisce my past in the future.

'' The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure. ''

NIE 2011

Our almost done front cover! Sorry for my failure there, I tried my best. :/

I love thisssss! :)

Good job, guys! I think this year we've done a great job although we did everything in a rush. Coming to think of it, we finished this in... 2 to 3 days maybe? I think that's amazing! :D And SYT, are you gonna upload our final product? XD Although it will be a heart attack for Wendy. Teehee. :P